It wasn't my intention to mislead you It never should have been this way What can I say It's true, I did extend the invitation I never knew how long you'd stay
When you hear temptation call It's your heart that takes, takes the fall Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step Heart to heart Left, right, left We all fall down Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit Torn apart We never win But the battle wages on For toy soldiers
It's getting hard to wake up in the morning My head is spinning constantly How can it be? How could I be so blind to this addiction? If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me
Only emptiness remains It replaces all, all the pain Won't you come out and play with me
We never win
Wealthy tycoon Noah Ashton lacks nothing but love…until a trip to his small Montana hometown leads him to gentle schoolteacher Julie Renton. Julie is reluctant to risk her heart, but when a shocking ordeal throws them together, Noah may prove to be the man she's always waited for.
Heaven Knows
The warm welcome she receives from a widower and his daughter is the last thing Alexandra Sims expected. John Corey could never turn away anyone in need, and he's determined to help—and love—Alexandra, in spite of the secret she hides.
Book Notes - Andre Jordan ("Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now")
In the Book Notes series, authors create and discuss a music playlist that relates in some way to their recently published books.
The title of Andre Jordan's graphic memoir, Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now first caught my eye. A Smiths song as title of a memoir? This should be interesting...
Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now often reads like a Morrissey lyric. Jordan lets his simply-drawn cartoons tell his story with an often charming pessimistic romanticism in this clever, dark, funny, and ultimately hopeful memoir.
In his own words, here is Andre Jordan's Book Notes essay for his graphic memoir, Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now:
Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now is a graphic memoir. It tells the story of my painfully shy childhood, awkward teenage years, disastrous love life, depression, and therapy, and ends with the optimism I now feel about my future.
I would go to a shop. The girl in the shop would look at me in a 'moody' manner. "She hates me," I would think to myself. "I am a complete twat." I would then go home and draw a picture or write a poem that captured my complete humiliation: "I wrote a thousand love songs and sang them from my heart. But when I said they're all for you, you laughed and laughed and laughed."
If these words make you smile, if you can see yourself in what I have written, then I wrote Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now for you.
SIX SONGS
1) "How Soon Is Now" by The Smiths
This song is the soundtrack to my youth and my early twenties. I remember standing in the corner of nightclubs watching my friends all dancing to Tina Turner and Duran Duran and wondering if I would ever find my place in this world. As Morrissey sings, "'There's a club, if you'd like to go. You could meet somebody who really loves you. So you go, and you stand on your own. And you leave on your own. And you go home, and you cry. And you want to die."
2) "Mr. Bojangles" by Nina Simone
For years I never felt able to just be me. Instead, I would become the thing I thought people wanted me to be. I would dance for them. The only people I truly felt comfortable being around were the homeless people I would photograph. We would share stories about our pasts and smoke cigarettes on benches. No one came near.
3) "Come Undone" by Robbie Williams
I feel quite embarrassed picking this song. It is not a 'cool' song. Not a song I'd list if I wished to impress you. Just picking it reminds me of how I felt in therapy. Completely ashamed, embarrassed, and so uncool. And, so, it needed to be here. This song really does express how therapy felt. What I thought of myself. "I am scum, watch me come undone."
4) "Must I Paint You a Picture" by Billy Bragg
This song reminds me how it finally felt to draw and write down the things I'd had to face about myself in therapy. It is raw. It is honest. Heart on my sleeve. This is me. Every drawing in my book feels like this song.
5) "Bigfoot" by Weakerthans
When the dust finally settles, and you look up to see who's left standing beside you, you find your true friends. The ones who truly believe in you. It is an amazing feeling. And those people that you once 'danced for' no longer matter. "When the visions that I see believe in me."
6) "Glory Days" by Pulp
This song makes me smile. It reminds me that everything is possible and nothing, nothing, is pointless. For years I was told to "stop this creative nonsense and get a proper job." That my doodles and prose "were pointless." Thank God I never listened. "And if it all amounts to nothing, it doesn't matter, these are still our glory days."
Andre Jordan and Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now links:
Get to some water today and reconnect with this element, Pisces. Like lapping waves against the shore, you may be gently changing the landscape around you with each word or action. Don't underestimate your inner strength. It could be that you seem overpowered by the things going on around you, but don't let them keep you from being the person you truly are.
All you have to do today to impress someone is to be absolutely yourself, warts and all. There is no need to hold back. You can tell all your worst jokes, be as tactless as you like, say all those things that you aren't supposed to say, and the result will be that you fulfill someone's every dream. Hard to believe, but true!
ill admit i got warts on my hands now from touchin his...oops...ill ducktape my hands too like he does
You're not one to simply rest on your laurels, no matter how comfortable it might be. That's especially true on a day like this one, when you're receiving all the messages the universe is sending and correctly interpreting every single one. The stars are telling you to create, produce, attempt and, above all, dare. Go above and beyond what you think is possible, and you might just see it become probable
now had i went and pourd oil on amys car(instead of gay ass presents0 or paulas car or franks car i woulda got in trouble...i used the power washer it didnt come out...but he was lucky and i got lucky after cuz he got it off with goo gone...
